Yea.... still haven't figured out the other journal yet, been too busy.

I've noticed a shaking starting in my right side.... hand.... sometimes leg. Dunno if it's nerves, dunno if it's something worse. My dad had a fluke shot gene that caused his ALS. I know of people that are diagnosed at 25 or 27. Needless to say going to the medical doc to get it checked out. If I'm told I'm being paranoid and just need to go take a chill, that's fine. I'd rather spend the money and hear that than put it off as nerves and have it come out to something worse.

I can always take my time and work on a psychological issue. I will not be able to take my time if it's physical. So, the doc will be called, and appointment made.

Discussed this with the Doc today.

So did a little more insight work. Actually looked at our/my hands. I'm a heavy believer in energy, so, look at the energy within hands. Is there something there, something wrong, chakra out of balance or whatever....

There was an energy, allright. Right hand got hot, left got cold. Tried to release that energy, back into the earth so it could align itself. It wouldn't go towards the earth. It went up. Looked like heat rising... that colorless disturbance, hovered right above my palm. It took shape, or seemed to, of a shrouded figure, waiting.

Looked somewhat familiar.

It's a figure we've seen on and off for years now.

So, picked up the crayons and drew it for the doc. Then Spazzboy started talking at the speed of light and so only about half of it is remembered, and it's still blurry.... makes my damned head hurt.

Wailer. Monster. Keening. Cemetaries. Serial Killers. Fascination with and study of. Understanding the monster. More Monsters. Justification. Conviction.

A monster to combat the monsters.

(yea, the gusto to write the entry obviously foundered)