Starting Anew..... - 3/25/2002

Today..... I was bent over and RAPED by circumstance.

Friday night..... I called my boss and left a message with her boyfriend that I was heading down South because of C's dad, and would not be at work Saturday.

Saturday, the zoo did not have the message. They had to call to find me.

I had been told, several months ago, that if such a thing happened again, that I would be dismissed.

Well...... I am now among the unemployed.

Now, thinking that I had called her house and left a message... my ass was covered. Apparently not, because she and her boyfriend were no longer. I didn't know this, she understood. She also understood I had no idea she was going to be out of town.

However, she had to stick to her guns and what she told me, because if not, she'd get no respect as a boss..... and I'm also not the only one that's getting this particular talk this week - I just happened to be there on Monday. Others, though, are getting the talk for much more severe reasons.

Her reasoning, then, I understand. She told me what would happen, I fucked up because my mind was focused elsewhere. Sadly, the circumstances sucked.

On the paperwork she's going to put down I quit, and give me a dazzling recommendation.... because she knew I was a hard worker, loved the job, went out of my way for it, so on and so forth. It was a very honest discussion. She was very appreciative I understood she was doing what she had to do, and not what she wanted to do. She wishes she didn't have to, would rather keep me as an employee, but could not let it slide.

Again, I totally understood.... just would rather it have been a different week.

She actually started crying when I did. It was the last straw on a ton of stresses that were building up. It wasn't the job I was upset about. There are others. It's the fact that I hadn't released the stress that had built up over the past weekend. Being the eldest couple in the family, all had looked to C and I for support. So we had to keep it together through the weekend. I didn't know until Sunday that I worked today, so had actually planned on letting it all out today. Then that got switched to letting it all out after work.

Well.... *laughs* it's all been let out. I feel much better.

She lost her mother about six months ago, so knows what I'm going through. And if she had known how bad it was, she would have waited another week or two before having the little discussion. Oh well *chuckles*

It's an amiable parting. It wasn't my job performance that was at fault, nor did she dislike me as an employee. She just had to stick to the rules she set forth.

We both knew it. I told her I'd like it to be amiable, so I could come back and visit and whatnot, and she's glad I was able to think that way.

Thought it was very big of you, actually

We both also talked of how this frees me up to go spend time with C's family down South and not have to worry about coming back here to make work days.... or end up having to call off. I told her that it also freed up some worries C and I had about the move, and still keeping this job. Now, I can look wherever, and still call back on the zoo for a good recommendation.

I feel rather free *chuckles*

There's rent to worry about..... but I'll worry about that next week. If all else fails, we move in with C's parents for a month or two while looking for a place and job up there.... still allows C to be close to her dad and not have to worry about spending time with me, too.

Seems there's quite a silver lining to this storm cloud. Saved me the hell of making the decision to quit the zoo should the time come to require it......

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Called C when I got home, though, she's down in LA with her dad right now. There's been no improvement, and she sounded very grim. Not necessarily the news she wanted or needed to hear, I'm sure, but I know she'd also rather I tell her than keep it for a few days. We both said and knew that. After cleaning up a few things here, going to see if I can find a way to get down there again, or at least to her parents place to be a little closer.