Session / Nick update- 11/28/2001

Interesting today.

It's funny, really. Most people have to work on anger management and rage control. I do not have this problem. I manage my anger so well it tends to not get out until it dissipates back into placacity.

Oooooh, five dollar word, there.

Shut up. But let me tell you the energy was flowing strong and free today.

We vented abut mom (I mentioned I was packing, the the other day). Spazzboy made it loud and clear that we felt betrayed, cheated, and basically unwelcome in this house anymore. That's fine. We'll move. The place has become intolerable to quite a few of us. It is no longer a santuary. One little action on Monday has changed the entire course of the future. There is no way to smooth this one over. No way we can see now, anyway.

Now to late the rage calm down enough to speak coherantly and civily to mom. Even though I'd like to just rip into her..... that's burning a bridge I will not want burned later. Be it next week, or next year, I know I'll regret it. Everybody's been doing their best to stay in check, and talk to her when it's time.

..... (and 10 minutes later) .....

Seems it was time. Just let her have it and said we're moving. As soon as this quarter is over I'm out. I don't know when I'll finish my degree, I don't even know really where we'll be going. But it's done.

And what's really fucked up is I told her this as I was helping her set up the goddamn Christmas tree.

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Nick is doing well. He's relaxing..... sleeps on the bed with C at night, now. Went to the vet yesterday (the one I used to work for) and she checked him out. Doing good except for majorly underweight (as in 54 pounds) and a slight case of worms. Gave C the meds for him, so all is good.

Got of hold of one place that may take him. This guy is bringing his female up on Saturday, and if she accepts Nick, he'll he able to take him to a proper home for wolves.

Now, to get my own ass out of the fire.