*sighs* They've always been there, but I've never remembered them. They're being remembered now. SO thinks something is about to break. She's promised to take care of us, though.....
The dreams. Lower/mid back's swollen enough to be visable. Switching at light speed......
I think she's right.
the dreams are back, never brefore rmemembered remembered down now, forget forget they always forget before but now now now NOW they remember and it hurts it hurts they said it would be safe now safe now safe not safe not safe not safe NOT SAFE and scared and hurting and bleeding and aching and fearing and scared and hating and trusting trusting who? who do dtrust? who help? no one stopped no one could stop no one wanted to stop but me cause it hurt hurt BAD bad man trusted face different body many differnt bodies same face not real not REAL hurt when waking happened twice two times can't sleep anymore ruin SO day off my fault my fault withdrawn so can't function can't touch can't be touched not safe NOT SAFE why why WHY does hurt so so long ago why hurt NOW?!
Someone wrote that this morning.
Things upheaved at my work. Things upheaved at my SO's work. The fact my enrollement at the Art Institute has been upheaved because of lost paperwork in the mail, so now we must scramble. The entire situation *points over* there. Then toss in the dreams.
Something's about to snap indeed.
Did watch the Prince of Egypt for the first time a day or two ago. I can see why they made the big deal about it cinematically. Pretty cool movie, even if I don't agree with the belief system. Just because I don't believe in it doesn't mean I shouldn't/can't/or won't know anything about it. I've even taken some classes on Biblical history.
However, our comment that summed up the entire movie?
Man..... those must have been some surprised fish.....
I hope the snappage is a breakthrough towards healing. In either case, I can only imagine how scary it must be right now. :o| [Mirror_rorriM]