*wonders if some people understand humor........*
Yes, I know what Ouija boards, mystics, soothsayers, oracles, palm readers, hand tremblers and others of the like that I'm forgetting to mention do. It's part of the reason I DARED say it. I also wanted to see if DS would catch the reference again *chuckles*
And don't you think...... if someone were to communicate with the spirits that hang around him and have since he was a wee tot, on a good chance...... perhaps those spirits would also know what happened?
Be nice *chuckles*
And M_M? *pokes* You know I was playin'..... see? I'm together enough to remember some of your notes from a while back.... when I was more than ambiguous *sheepish grin*
I sort've remember "when it all began." The first time I realized there was more to it was about four years ago. Though at the time I thought it was just the alter ego I portrayed online, my role-playing character. I thought I was taking role-playing too seriously (of course, that didn't stop me from playing, oh no *laughs*). I thought I was becoming one of those HBO specials about kids who take things too seriously, figuring I'd soon snap and be drawn into some big cult or something wanted for mass murder while inviting the martians to a small get-together in the jacuzzi before we set off for world domination. Or whateverthefuck *laughs* Eventually, after a few brainless hours, I realized that was just stupid and I wasn't that unstable and there was a rational explanation for this little flux in my head.
I jokingly accepted I was a multiple for a long time. Perhaps a little denial laced it all. They all stayed inside. Was it really true? Was I really crazy? Or just one big joke? The asshole didn't force his way out until little over a year ago.
Holy fuck it was true.
There wasn't always cohesion. Or at least cohesion I understood - there was always communication between them, that I was slowly made aware of..... or allowed myself to believe. It took me a while to realize there was something actually -wrong-. I thought it was always my characters.
And would I change it if I could? Make it to where they all were just "characters" I played..... out of creativity, and not necessity to give them an out before they burst? *sighs* Sometimes I'd say yes..... all of us would. For the sake of C, and the hell we've put her through. Give her back the guy she fell in love with. But then, we look at how well all of us get along, now..... and I'm still here. So it's not that bad. I enjoy the company, too.... I'd miss them. I don't think I'd know how to function anymore without them.
I have a feeling she'd miss them too *soft smile*
There was a referenece? Damn. Missed that one.. [Dementia's Slave]