And the crystal ball sayeth..... - 2/19/2001

"If you could speak to an all-knowing being, and ask for the answer to any one question - what would you ask? What would you hope for the answer to be?"

For once? Cohesion.....

Just about everybody is answering this one the same way. And we don't necessarily care who this all knowing being IS, particularly. We just want he/she/it to be all knowing. I'm not one for organized religion (organized, period, seems to escape us), obviously, but will happily converse with God about this...... any God, Christian or otherwise....... a convenient Madame Mamushka with her Ouija board will also do.

However.....

We want to know what all the factors are that brought us into existance.

*sighs soft* I'm not complaining. There are very few conflicts among us anymore, mostly petty "sibling squabbling" for lack of a better word. We function so well together now. Most multiples take YEARS to work things into some sort of pecking order that works for all involved. Somehow we took care of that without even knowing it. Co-consciousness* helps, verily. And true, there's still some VERY scarey points. They still happen, more often than I'd like to admit, and it reminds me that everything's not all smoothed out yet, there are still others inside......... but we do what we can to either calm down or figure out the where's and why's.

So both C and I have accepted this *smile* And C has been more supportive than I ever could have asked, wished or hoped for.

And I'm sure some deep probing *smirk Can it.

will reveal some answers.... be it psychological or whatever. I'd actually prefer the whatever. Might just be me, but I'd prefer the "oh, you're posessed" huge paranormal shindig to the "you suffered highly traumatic abuse as a child" textbook example. Granted, puking pea soup is going to suck on cleanup..... but it's frightening, if you think about it, finding out that something happened that was so terrible I couldn't handle it..... and someone else in here did. Yay pea soup

Either way, we want to know.

*Co-consciousness means basically that we are aware of each other's actions most if not all the time. Whether or not these actions or situations are remembered is all a matter of just how much attention is being paid at the time. Quite a few times one or two haven't been paying attention and missed part of a conversation, or whatever, that everyone else was in on. There was also a time C was driving and we were making a left turn on a green arrow...... spazzboy was the only one that noticed the car coming the other way at 50+ wasn't slowing down for that red light. He yelled to watch out, none of the rest of us remember doing so but it was the only thing that made C hit the brakes. But..... I'm rambling.

It's been fairly obvious throughout this diary, I know, but just in case I was being ambiguous again *smiles at M_M* somehow. Many multiples switch out completely and quite literally the left hand doesn't know what the right is doing.