Significances - 12/12/2000

Been a while, eh? *soft chuckle* Been busy, working, and having a writing slump like you wouldn't believe. Just no dirve for anything other than dribble. Can't even roleplay worth a damn..... Attention span has been shorter.... plus the whole holiday madness.

I have been driving my best friend crazy, though. Told her I had a diary on here, and she STILL hasn't found me after.... what..... well over a week now (and this woman searches dilligently)

Anyway, theme #42.... (which I was alerted to by said best friend who is furiously typing as I do, only she doesn't know I am)

"Do you have a best friend or significant other who is essential in your life? Describe that person, and the qualities that make him or her important to you."

I have both.

As for my best friend, who lives in *mumble*.... well..... just read my previous entry. That says it all.

Convenient, eh?

Damn straight.

*brow lifts*

*sighs*

And then there's C. She drives me (us) nuts and takes me (us) to the very brink, yet I coudln't live without her. We've had our fights and our differences, and I've (you've)

.....thanks.

fucked up royally quite a few times. But even through all that, we can look at each other.... and the spark is still there.

I mean, c'mon.... you're with a person for 8 years, thinking you know that person inside and out, every little nuance, every little nugget of information readily shared between you. Then, within the last year, you find out and fully accept - WITHOUT ARGUMENT - that there is no other alternative.... you're lover is a multiple. He just isn't "him" anymore.

He is now *takes a headcount* 4 others.... actively. Switches take place daily and often. There are also others who don't come out as often, whom she has never met, and none of us know if she will. Some of us are mean. Shy. Spiteful. Sarcastic. Voracious. Adventurous. Scared. Vindictive. Homicidal.......

Suicidal....

Each has their own fears, wants, lusts, favorites, games, ages.... even accents and styles of dress. And while I am learning to cope with this, and make everything run smoothly (and compared to many others like us, I'm extremely lucky)...... I forget that she is also having to cope with this. I am not the person she fell in love with. Well.... I am.... just something more, too. That no matter what we cannot get away from.

I don't think any of us have ever thanked her.

Yea, but Christmas is just around the corner, big guy. I know she appreciates the hour long backrubs I can give her, or what the others can do, and that's fine for a regular basis. You know it as well as we do, you're just worrying *chuckles* We've been saving up to do something nice. Don't worry about it *smooth grin*

Frightening how the youngest tends to be the voice of reason sometimes......

But after all I ..... we've put her through, she continues to stand by our side. I cannot even begin to type what makes her so important to me.