(cont'd)

What I allowed to happen then would have made or broken our relationship. I mean, I can't even imagine what I"ve put C through sortin my head out. How would -you- feel is the person you loved for years suddenly became a couple of someone elses? C's been there, for me... and for them, 100% supportin the entire way. There's a one or two that still need to have the wrinkles ironed out, but for the better part most of them get along with her. Some even have developed some pretty strong feelings for her *smiles*

(Yes, dear, how do I love thee?Let me count the ways... oh, there's me.. and him...and him overthere... *chuckles*)

Since I've let them out, I"ve stopped cutting (much to C's relief, as I wouldn't remember doing it)... stopped having major fights with people from pure frustration if nothing they did... haven't been as physically destructive of poor unsuspecting property.... haven't even done as much drugs

If I didn't make that choice that night, to let it all just flow (hm, maybe I should listen to my own advice here, eh? *L*) I have a feeling it would have gotten tot he point where they didn't do this the polite way, and given me warning, or they could have just jumped out infront of my mom or someone that wouldn't have understood the way C does, that didn't know as much about it as C does.... very few people actually know about this little.. peculiarity... my best friend waaaaay up in*mumble*... and a coupla chosen few who are scattered across the country (and y'all, now, of course)... no one in my family knows, none of my friends here know.. so far they've behaved and stayed inside when I'm around others (unless I have an exucse for acting or talking differently cause I"m drunk, since we're all aware of each other just about the entire time they can keep the conversation flowing nicely).

Why freak these people out? When the day comes, it will-and that's all I can do about it.